Not such a genius afterall

Don't you know it?

2010-10-27T23:29:00.002+08:00

I'm a little bit scared.
But I'd really like you to come a little closer.
Thaw my frozen nerves and make me laugh.
Tell me it's okay.

Show me.
xoxoxox

twitching & wishing

2010-05-16T20:42:00.004+08:00

Look up to the skies and close my eyes. Twitch my nose to make a wish:

For a perfect pair of brogue lacies, i'd trade 4 weeks of cookies. And candies and all the goodies.

Good heavens aren't i thrifty?

Simple things that make my day.

2010-04-07T14:19:00.004+08:00

When the world around me clamours with chaos. I take solace in my thoughts:

- Make believing my well-kept secret - You & I.
- Curling up with a good book - suspended reality.
- Running while closing my eyes - flying.
- letting chocolate melt in my mouth - A little piece of heaven.

You & I. Suspended reality. Flying. A little piece of heaven.

everything reminds me of...
xoxoxo

make belive

2010-04-05T17:54:00.002+08:00

It's the early nineteen nineties. :)

This one's for you.
xoxox

When it rains, it pours.

2010-04-03T15:08:00.002+08:00

Today i decided to make a one pot lunch. When the oven went "ping", I carefully slipped on my mits and took the dish out.

Sadly, it went BANG on the floor!

I felt like crying. Two teardrops fell.

But one nutella toast later, and i feel swell.

When it rains, sometimes, it rains for a reason.

Mine might've just been Nutella.

xoxoxox

Life can be...

2010-04-01T15:24:00.002+08:00

Oh, so very peculiar.
Sometimes short of spectacular.
Yet, oh sweetly unfamiliar.

And then, in my dreams... so are you.

Dear Blog,

2010-03-31T18:36:00.005+08:00

I've turned my back, preferring the 140-character-limit of a twitter's microblogging experience. I've not penned a poem, written a short story, or scribbled my emotions since.

I am sorry. Let's give it another go shall we?

Here's to writing!
xoxoxox
*clinks glass*

Come and rest your bones with me.

2009-07-15T11:50:00.002+08:00

Sunday Morning Rain is Falling
Steal some covers share some skin
Clouds are shrouding us in moments unforgettable
You twist to fit the mold that I am in

My fingers trace your every outline
Paint a picture with my hands
And back and forth we sway
Like branches in a storm

Come and rest your bones with me
Driving slow on Sunday Morning
And I never want to leave.

The bits and bots i love about the lyrics on this song.

xoxox

It sure feels good to write.

2009-07-05T10:53:00.002+08:00

There's something therepeutic abt just scribbling or tap tapping words onto a blank canvas.

Mood: "flash-back-to-90's-Toni-Braxton-madness".

~First thing Monday Morning I'm gonna pack my tears away. Got no cause to look back, i'm looking for me a better day~ See the thing abt love, is that its not enough.. ~ Let it go~ let it flow let it flow.. let. it. flow.~

Letting go.

The Tir,

xoxoxox

For those stricken...

2009-06-30T10:54:00.002+08:00

My prayers for your well-being. And all of ours:

Allaahumma laa sahla 'illa maa ja'altahu sahlan wa 'Anta taj 'alul-hazna 'ithaa shi'ta sahlan.

"O' Allah, there is no ease other than what You make easy. If You please, You ease sorrow."

Ameen.

Pearls...are my my best friend.

2009-06-28T10:51:00.003+08:00

Don't you love it when you have $2500 worth of rounded-lustrous babies strung across your neck?

It felt wonderful.. all 120seconds of it.

Gotta rob me a bank now. Or would you wanna get it for me?

Home & Happy.
Much love,

The Tir
xoxoxoxox

Sometimes

2009-06-16T12:53:00.003+08:00

I wish i was... Rip-Resistant.

Today, he suggested... "Let's you and I go to Kuraman Island".

On the upside, it makes me feel human :)

The Tir,

xoxoxox

Silence is a language....

2009-06-13T11:49:00.001+08:00

.... It means "I'd rather not say".

20-somethings & their stories

2009-06-09T07:19:00.002+08:00

When a bunch of 20-somethings lepak and talk abt old-time cartoons:

Me:.... Eh!! what's the name of that bad guy in smurfs?
Raub:.... *Thinks* Ughh!! nda ingat.. but he has a dog right?
Tigress:.... SNOOPY!!!!!!!

HAHAHHAHAHAH LOL.

Some 20-somethings should just stick to reading horoscopes.

His name is Gargamel, and no, he does not have a dog.. its a CAT! Let us not start on SNOOPY, ok? kekekekke...

The Tir,

xoxox

When life gives you lemons...

2009-06-07T01:36:00.003+08:00

Slowly learning to make it through many lemons on my own...

In. Due. Time.... I shall make lemonades and drink under the warm Borneoan sun, my feet dug into the sand. A genuine smile on my face.

The Tir,

xoxox

It's a race...

2009-06-05T08:47:00.001+08:00

... To the finish line.

Exam's in a few days. Submissions before next friday. My brain is threatening to ooze out of my ears.

Ewwww,

xoxox

It's Your Birthday

2009-06-02T03:22:00.003+08:00

Life begun the moment you breathed in air. Keep living it, we only get one life story to tell. *hugs*

On a different note, I just realised:
The art of keeping it together, is hell to keep up. So god help me

hush hush secret

2009-06-01T14:27:00.007+08:00

Can you keep a secret?

So dark and naughty –

it’s everybody’s favourite.

Will you hold your tongue and

swear you’ll forever harbour it?

Would you keep mum

and promise you’ll just hum

when the urge surfaces.

Would you bite your cheek

and never let out a squeak?

Will you keep my secret...

keep it dark and naughty,

you’ll smile when you think of it.

-Hadthiah Hazair-

Counting my blessings

2009-05-31T01:27:00.004+08:00

I call them friends when they:

- Laugh when you smile

- Invite you over for a horror flick movie

- Feed you pizzas till you drop

- Keep still so you can sleep comfortably

- Share your secrets and promise to keep it to the grave

- Call you sweetie, just because

- Cook curries and no-bake desserts together

- Take their kites for a run with you even when there's no wind

- Will hold your hand even if they don't know you're sad

- Make life a little more bearable when things are down-right gloomy

- Are the only ones allowed to call you 'Lazy', 'Stinky' or 'Fatty'

- Tell you you're hotter than America's next top model.

- Sacrifice time for you.

Silver linings

2009-05-29T00:05:00.003+08:00

I love how life punches you in the face.

And then gives you a candy to suck on and make it better for a while.

Thank god for friends and so much work your mind gets numbed.

What if i never know?

2009-05-27T10:33:00.001+08:00

... If this is how it's meant to be.

I need a little faith.

Back in Business

2009-05-25T16:45:00.003+08:00

Confused is an understatement:

Things change, matters shift.
Feelings fade - life is swift.

-Hadthiah Hazair-

A little prayer for a beloved cousin.

2009-02-03T23:53:00.003+09:00

'As 'alullaahal 'Adheema Rabbal 'Arshil Adheemi 'An Yashfiyaka

"I Ask the Almighty Allah, Lord of the magnificent throne to make you well."

Ameen, Ameen, Ya Robbal 'Alameen.

(Alham dulillahi 'alaa kulli haal - Praise is to Allah in all circumstances)

Can't help loving...

2009-01-30T10:07:00.003+09:00

... That man of mine.

Fish got to swim, Birds got to fly
I got to love, One man till I die
Can't help loving, That man of mine

-Show Boat-

Some days, I wanna kill you.
But, most days... *grins*

The Tir,

xoxoxo

Gong Xi Gong Xi!!!

2009-01-27T09:04:00.002+09:00

Does an Ox Moo??
Let's just moo to mark the year of the Ox then..

*MoOOo* huhu..

For the chinese new year, I got me a spanking new truly to the core SHORT hair do. Will post pics of new hair some time this week. AM loving it, the beloved Garfield however was shocked at first, but he's slowly learning to like it.

The "Health Regime"?? Here are my new measurements:

Weight: 48.8 kgs
Under bust: 29 inches
Waist: 25.6 inches
Tummy: 27.2 inches

Been exercising almost 75 minutes daily. And I wasn't really aiming for weight loss, just needed to tone up my jelly bits, and goodness I have heaps of "soft" spots. SO am looking forward to losing more inches arnd the tummy and arms especially.

Update soon..

Happy Chinese New Year!!

The Tir,

xoxoxox

My new toy :)

2009-01-20T13:53:00.005+09:00

Is a silicone muffin tray!!

So yesterday, i made me some fresh strawberry and oats muffins sweetened with honey. Drizzled with chocolate and sprinkled with cinnamon.

On to today's meal and exercise plan:

Tentative exercise - 45 mins jog (3kms) 2 reps abdominal crunches

Breakfast - Milk coffee with sugar, Half boiled egg with pepper and soy sauce.

Snack - A handful of grapes

Lunch - 1/2 cup cooked brown rice, portion of tuna, 2 portions stir fried leafy vegies.

Tea time - Hazlenut Latte (yummy). 1/2 apple. Handful of beef nachos (no cheese).

Dinner - 1/2 apple. Clear vegetable soup.

The Tir,

xoxoxox

Bear with me.. (So, the "health routine" begins AGAIN)

2009-01-19T12:46:00.005+09:00

From now until I head back for boring Cyberjaya, Selangor :-

This space will document my diet, weight and measurement changes. Starting from today. Hopefully this will not make me lose track of my health resolutions for ATLEAST the first quarter of 2009.

Starting weight: 49.5 kgs
Under bust: 29 inches
waist: 26 inches
tummy: 27.5 inches

Exercise - 35 mins jog (2kms), Weights 15 mins, 4 reps crunches.

B'fast - 1 poached egg, 2 toast with 1/2 tspn butter, 1 cup mixed vegetables, sugar milk coffee.

Snack - 1 cup ginger tea with honey

Lunch - Clear broccoli and carrot soup, 1/4 cup cooked brown rice. HUGE portion stir fried leafy veg with tempe. 1/2 portion chix breast.

Dessert - 1 small pack horlick malties candy

Tea - 2 home made fresh strwaberries and oat mini muffins, 2 vegetable spring rolls, plain green tea.

Dinner - Chicken Hummus with one flat pita bread. 1/4 bowl Fatoush Salad.

Supper - Mug of warm milo

Did Y'know?: Ginger expels wind, aids digestion and helps keep energy levels up. Good for relieving menstrual cramps and nausea . Apparently a great aphrodisiac for men too!!

Wish me luck!!
The Tir,

xoxoxox

Wow, as I'm updating the food list, I do realise I EAT ALOT.. even when i'm trying to restrain on the calories. :/ hmm..

She's Back!!!!

2009-01-18T13:43:00.004+09:00

Look.. it's Hana!! She's home.. :)

Will update more later. Looking for a lost Garfield now.
Please, if you have him... Kindly return to me. (picture below)

The Tir.

xoxoxox

Forever Thankful.

2009-01-10T10:37:00.000+09:00

Alhamdhu Lillahil-lathee Bini'matihi Tatimmus saalihaat.

"Praise be to Allah Who by His blessings, all good things are perfected"

Passed all my modules. I am happy and thankful.

ALHAMDULILLAH.

Things I Do...

2009-01-08T01:59:00.007+09:00

When I'm bored @ home...

I Bake cupcakes (Apple crumble cupcake w whipped cream)

Take photos with Boboy first thing in the morning in our sleep attire

Bake more goodies (Peanut Butter choc chips cookies)

And then some more.. (Mini Pavlovas with fresh strawberries)

ALSO, I torture myself by chatting with Eric on MSN (see exhibit below)

Eric says:
isn't that every woman's dream to have hot sex with the sexy gardener
Eric says:
hahahaha
Borneoan Child says:
'cept he's not sexy
Borneoan Child says:
and i'm not eva longoria
Borneoan Child says:
salambigar is not wisteria lane
Eric says:
hahahh
Borneoan Child says:
no.. this is not deperate housewives
Borneoan Child says:
ahahahha
Eric says:
lol
Borneoan Child says:
u watch too much tv
Eric says:
despearate teeya
Eric Says:
hey do girls fantasize about being raped by hot guys
Borneoan Child says:
OMG NO!!!
Borneoan Child says:
are u MAd??

Yes, Eric's weird. But, I'm weirder for keeping friends like him. LOL.

But who am I w/o old friends like him?
w/o cam whoring sessions with beloved brothers?
w/o dirtying the mixing bowls and concocting weird desserts?

xoxoxo
Tir

Tir's been a bad bad girl.

2009-01-07T00:09:00.001+09:00

HAPPY NEW YEAR 2009!!

This year's resolution: To make last year's resolution into reality.

(but let's not go into the details *sigh)

I have, in my escape from writing & blogging, been through:

- heaps of good books

- painful migraines

- Splendid loving dates & stolen moments with Him

- exciting Borneoan travel anecdotes

- yummy food

- Coffee with treasured friends

- Shahbandar hikes

- nulling the above hike with an overdose of cake

- BAKING!

- ignored by a "supposedly good friend"

Seeing that this is the beginning of a fresh new year, I shall be big enough to act my age and ignore the final point. *sigh*.

Moving on.. Enjoy this piece I wrote some 2 years back to welcome the new year..

Here's to wishing you all more cherished memories, good health, and most importantly, the strength to overcome the sad and learn from the bad. Happy 2009!!

xoxoxo

-::New Year Countdown::-

Tick, tick, tock - It's 11.59
With silly smiles and laboured breaths
Silently, waiting for "The Sign"
Our hopes anewed and spirits fresh

Tick, tick, tock - 1st January
I wish you well into February
So, when March rolls around,
It'll greet you safe and sound

Tick, tick, tock - it's April now
With her friends, May and June
Three ladies with lucks abound
I pray they'll rub some off on you

Tick, tick, tock - July, July!

Number 7 thumps its way
8 and 9 will follow suit

Let's toast to simply getting by

Tick, tick, tock - October's here

Hooray hooray, some festive cheer
For November and December

That's 12 months well lived indeed!

--Hadthiah A Hazair --

Just Cabbages. hurl

2008-12-12T09:07:00.002+09:00

If i see another head of cabbage I might just vomit.

Whoever invented the cabbage soup diet? I mean, on the offset, it seems to be do-able

"All the soup, fruits & veges you want, diet and never be hungry!" - oh well, apparently, you get sick of the soup after just one day and i never knew how addicted to sugar I was.

Sad thing is, its only my 3rd day. 4 more days to go. I just might not make it thru this cabbage mess. h.e..ll..p.

I cant even exercise properly. Is it all just in my head? I shud stop being a wuss and just suck it in:

I am Hadthiah. I can do this shit.

Hear me slurrrrrpp my cabbage soup.

*GOD HELP ME*~

Call me Miss Jiggles.

2008-12-06T20:29:00.002+09:00

That's right, Miss Jiggles.

*sigh*

I need to lose weight.
Today was my second Shahbandar trip in a row.
Must lose 3 kgs by end of month.
Must not have belly flab.
Must look like Jessica Alba.

Must Must Must....
Not be Miss Jiggles.

*waves*

(Yes, my arms are flapping~!)

Open up your plans and damn you're free~

2008-12-04T12:37:00.003+09:00

~Look into your heart and you'll find that the sky is yours~

Feels good to have my feet dig into the warm sun and the breeze carry my hair everywhere. :)

~I tried to be chill but ure so hot that I melted~

Lady Leisure Extraordinaire

2008-12-01T13:51:00.002+09:00

Yeap. that's me.
Or, in laymen's term: Lazy ass.

It's officially been a week since i got back, and with the whole drama of falling ill and my body detoxing from harmful chemicals only exposed to self when in the campus... It has just been me, the internet and the duvet. (and a pail for puke and tissue mayhem everywhere)

Planning to go back to work for a bit perhaps. Have to go back KL in mid Jan to arrange for new place to stay, Desa's getting wayy too pricey for the average person.

Hmm...
Hopefully I can strangle out enough dough for my planned trip to Singapore and Penang before the semester officially begins.

I take donations!!
Leave me a message if you're interested to domate
$10 & above only!
hahahha

Missing, missing and missing...

2008-11-26T22:54:00.010+09:00

My Desaria People.

Weird, but true. Was always saying "I wanna go home~" to Liza and SYazee and whoever would listen to me when I was in KL.

Now that I'm back home sweet home in Brunei, I kinda miss Desaria. Well, the "people" in Desaria atleast.

On a whole different note... I need to get my ass whooped back into shape. Pronto.

Successfully managed to procrastinate exercising for almost half a year. And on a 26 year old, It ain't flattering. I wud've been abled to pull this off 5 years ago, even 2 years ago. Now... *shudders* You wouldn't wanna know.

In the meantime, shall leave you with photos..

Last PR class for the semester

Liza, hard at work in my "Favourite" Multimedia 7 lab *grins*

My pathetic attempt at Badminton

First meal back in Brunei - JOLIBEE GOOOOOOD

Sushi Tei!!!!

So Long No Exercise.

2008-11-24T17:12:00.002+09:00

My muscles are no longer limber.
Was having lunch at uni when I saw two African dudes playing badminton in the plaza. Thinking I could match their so-so athletic capabilities, I strolled up and asked if I could play with them for five minutes.

5 seconds and one badminton racket later... It was my ass that's being kicked.
Sad bit was, the guy barely moved from his spot and I was a running mess.

This calls for yoga marathon sessions and daily 5km jogs.
When I come back in February, am gonna go find the guy and ask for a re-match.

I WANT A REMATCH!!
huhu...

In the mean time, I just want to day dream *smiles*

*WAVES*

So Happy I'm Hopping

2008-11-20T12:16:00.004+09:00

Assignments ALL DONE.

Exams ALL OVER.

How can I possibly not be happy?

This was written a few weeks ago, when all the workload seemed impossible. When small hurdles seemed like mountains (yes, i can be so dramatic like that) huhu:

-Troubled-

These are nights
when moonlight pierces,
interferes
my deepest inner sanctuary.
Memories worth a quarter of a century
violated
through darkened navy midnight skies.
These are nights,
when the moonlight seem to blind
and the stars glimmer with mock.
Nights,
when moonlight - cruel and raw –
unearths
what hurts the most
and its starry companion
blink back with jeer.
These are the nights
I sleep - uncertain and lost - in fear.

-Hadthiah Hazair-

Bubbles of randomness

2008-11-15T13:32:00.003+09:00

I feel the urge to write.
But i don't have a single coherrant string of words to make into a poem, nor anything sufficiently memorable to write down.

I feel slightly depressed. I blame Liza.
She's always harping about how depressed she feels, it's rubbing off on me.

Usually a drizzling Saturday puts me at peace, but today, it seems to just be mocking me. I feel depressed.

My emotions are pulped up, smashed, beaten, torn.
No particular reason, just one of those days. *sigh*

I feel like shouting, but i dont have anything to shout out.
Screaming, but my voice betrays me.
Crying, but I'm not saddened.

Cheesecake might help. Perhaps?

My no teeth smile, he says...

2008-11-14T02:50:00.002+09:00

Webcamming On MSN with Eric:

Eric says:
then u can't smile
Tir, says:
i can do the no teeth smile
Eric says:
no
Eric says:
no
Eric says:
no
Eric says:
like orang gila
Tir, says:
i think its endearing
Eric says:
no
Eric says:
STOP
Tir, says:
gee.. it cant be THAT bad
Tir, says:
exaggerating much?
Eric says:
maybe u ask ur friend
Eric says:
lemme know what they think
Tir, says:
of my no teeth smile?
Eric says:
yeah
Eric says:
APE
Tir, says:
U ARE MEAN
Tir, says:
hahahha
Eric says:
hutan borneo
Eric says:
original
Tir, says:
gila!
Eric says:
if u have botak hair definitely orang utan
Tir, says:
hahahha
Eric says:
don't do too much
Eric says:
after u get used to it
Eric says:
then god help u
Tir, says:
u can stop being mean
Eric says:
lol
Tir, says:
hahhahah lol

Hutan Borneo Original??

Hahahha, god help me indeed.

The Tir,

xoxoxo

It's a beautiful dawn

2008-11-12T07:24:00.003+09:00

Been a while since I woke up before what it seems like the rest of the world.
I love watching the lights go up through other people's windows as I watch from a careful distance, wondering what it must be to be in that person's life.
Do they wake up with the same daily worries as mine? Do they stretch in bed before they turn on their lights? Miss somebody the moment they awake?

A security guard was watching me from below. Probably, doing the exact same thing... wondering what makes other people tick. What the individual world is like when each awake from temporary death. Unlike the rest of the people I watched from my balcony, he smiled and gave me a good morning wave.

I quite like that - having a stranger say a mumbled "hey, how're u doing?" or just a little wave, however insincere it may be.

Morning light is starting to filter thru now. It's beautiful.
More lights are on. Are they doing assignments? Making breakfast?

The Tir,

xoxox

I miss jogging.

2008-11-10T21:01:00.002+09:00

Pound, pound, pound.
Knees bending, locking forward.
The world blurs in slow motion
even as I accelerate in steady motions.
It deafens, false silence.
Except for the
pound, pound, pound
of my heart beat,
of my footsteps.
My worries become
beads of prespiration.
My breath, fast with desperation.
It's calm - almost euphoric.
Temporary relief, mind & body in sync.
Nothing, but
Pound, pound, pound.

-Hadthiah Hazair-

Breathe. Breathe. Breathe.

2008-11-07T20:36:00.002+09:00

And still breathing under my mountain of assignments.

I've yet to study for my exam tomorrow. :(
erk..

Lately, the mortality rate among students at Uni has shot up. Just this week, two students passed away, perhaps of an accident. It is sad. To see young lives go.

The problem me thinks is the lack of proper structure in the car rental services here. ANYONE with an ID can rent a car. I mean, what if the student does not have a valid driver's license. The worst part of it is that these students might not just end up endangering themselves, but also risk the lives of other road users too.

Recently after returning the car keys back to the person I rented a car from:

Me:

Oh, i need my ID back from you.
Car guy:

Okay, wait.. *opens up drawers and pulls out a HUGE pile of student IDs*
Me:

Wow, good business. You got THAT many cars to rent out?

Car guy:

No, some of them died already. Some of them in jail. They all owe me money.

I was saddened by his response. I guess its all about the bottom line for these people.

*tsk*

Off we went...

2008-11-04T10:47:00.000+09:00

My sunday in pictures:

Liza, trying to hit me with a crab cracker at Fatty Crab

Didi: I'm too cool to wait

Lunch served & polished. Crab? What crab?

Oooo.. It's Halloween in OU.

Me: Di, u shtink...

Jack O lanterns are sexy. haha

Midnight photo sessions at the Putrajaya Bridge (no.1)

Our designated driver, all the way from Brunei!! SURPRISE!

Teaching Liza the "Sailor Moon" pose. LOL

Nas: Ure not channeling ure inner "Putrajaya Bridge" are you?

Putrajaya Brindge Numero 2.

"Oh, I feel faint in the presence of your masculine lines"

It's time to go into the light now.

Time to BUAT KERJA..
Off to campus.
xoxoxox

I missed Singapore

2008-11-03T13:33:00.002+09:00

So, my pre-planned weekend trip to Singapore had to be cancelled due to some last minute plan changes.

*boo-hoo* :(

Been busy with a few things, but had an interesting Sunday yesterday. Will post up photos and anecdotes later. Have to run to campus.

*Booo-hoooooooo* I WANT SINGAPORE NO SIGNBOAD WHITE PEPPER CRAB!!!!!!!!

Last Night, I Laughed till 3am

2008-10-30T14:31:00.000+09:00

On MSN with Siti and Didi:

Upon seeing my MSN profile picture (me jumping off a couch)

Siti: Eh tir.. telanjang kah gambar mu ani?

Me: Behapa tah ku kan betelanjang? Hahahha

Siti: Mana tau kau tesliur

Didi: Melumpat lagi tu!!

Later on in the conversation:

Didi: Gitau tia pasal limau ah.
Siti: Tir tau kau sudah apa erti Limau?

Me: entah.. apa? Oren?

Siti: Salah!!!

Me: Apa tah?

Siti: Tigau campur duau

Earlier that night with Syazee and Liza:

While watching TV8's ad search for a VJ.

Liza: We're too old to audition. 18 - 25 only lah.

Me: Hey, I can be 20 and you 23

Syazee: You guys should get fake IDs

HAHAHAHAH LOL!!!

Bah agatah kamu menjual kacang.
Apa erti Limau?
kweng kweng..

The Kutir,
xoxoxox

The broke & the Shopping

2008-10-29T00:35:00.002+09:00

Mix like oil & water. *sigh*
As usual, am procratinating work by hanging out at Liza's and now, browsing through ebay. I have the strongest urge to go shopping. But, I'm with the financial crunch on the monetary front.

A girl can dream and browse ebay. It's free too.
(in my warped mind, I've bought 5 tops, 3 vintage Dior bags, 2 new Oroton purses andddd.... a 24-inch-waist super skinny jeans.. yes, I'm a 24 in my imagination)

I wrote this limerick a few weeks ago, after watching Santa Clause3. I don't know, but father time and mother nature both give me the creeps. So unassuming, yet volatile:

Father Time and Mother Nature,

naught much but made-up potent wicked creatures.

For he - all knowing and wise - in time would wither us down

And she – pretty as rainbows - would crumble earth if scorned.

And should the two combine, Oh, what would be our future?

(Perhaps, but blackened ashes in the ground.)

-Hadthiah Hazair-

Note to self.

2008-10-26T18:50:00.000+09:00

Sometimes, I forget to say thank you. Forget to reminisce and appreciate. Forget that the people I care are, like myself, only human. Forget that to forgive is also to start clean. And I forget, that hardships act as a gentle reminder to correct ourselves.

I'm glad I have a hand to hold.
& people I love who love me too.
xoxoxox

Oh, Doctor!

2008-10-24T18:36:00.002+08:00

1.00pm:
Dizzy and out of breath
1.30pm:
Practically gasping for breath after climbing just 3 flights of stairs
2.15pm:
Felt on the verge of blacking out, airways felt constricted.

*At this point I panicked and rushed to see a doctor. Bronchitis? Pneumonia? Collapsed lung?*

At the clinic..

Doctor:
The assistant says you cannot breathe properly? do you have asthma?

Me:
*shakes head*

Doctor:
Okay... *Takes out stethoscope and starts listening to me breathe*
Hmm... *brings stethoscope to my upper abdominal area and listens for a very long time*
Me:
*bangang* (where are my lungs? Have they collapsed and laid lifeless down there?)
Doctor:
*frowns* Girl!!! Please don't skip meals ah. You must eat properly. Actually your lungs cannot take in much air because your stomach expanded... because there's so much trapped gas. Your gastric isvery bad! You must eat!
Me:
I eat more than 3 times a day. And I cannot feel the gastric pain.
Doctor:
Yea, you cannot feel the pain... Even worse, you just cannot breathe.
You better start eating, no need always diet diet. Just eat!
Me:
Okay, I'll try making it 8 meals a day instead of just 6.
Me thinks it might be stress giving me gas (hey, it rhymes) hahha...
so remember kids:
NO NEED DIET DIET!!! JUST EAT!!
xoxoxox

I Make Party Hats Rock

2008-10-22T16:27:00.003+08:00

Mari mengeja bersama Kutir:

S.U.L, sul.... T.A.N, tan.
Apa itu murid murid?

Yes, at 26, I still make party hats to wear as a diversion from my crappy as stale bread Malaysian History presentation on colonisation and the Malayan Union.
But, atleast my rendition of a sultan's crown looks kinda neat
(and god knows it was a hellota fun to make compared to my drama presentation)

Keh keh keh.. one presentation down, 2 to go.
This calls for more party hats!!

*Royal Wave*
xoxoxox

Headaches, Weird Dreams and High Stress Levels

2008-10-21T08:19:00.004+08:00

I think these three are interconnected. Stress gives you headache, you pop in a dozen pain killers, and you get weird dreams.

I've not had one so vivid and real as last night:

Instead of continuing my studies in KL, I was somehow back in Melbourne living at the house I used to live in, 1/115 Riversdale Rd. Hawthorn.

I drive an old beat up red Toyota Corolla, and I bring my stuffed dead cat (Ain) with me everywhere (I told you it's weird).

One cold winter night, I decided to go to Coles to do a late night grocery run. So off i went in my car, driving happily, petting the dead cat when suddenly i could feel its heart beating and body warming up. I stopped the car and watched a dead cat come back to life.

And come back to life she did!!

Guess what was the first thing I did?

.... Well, I quickly added cat food and kitty litter to my shopping list!

Isn't it weird?

And just to clear things out.. NO, I DID NOT STUFF MY DEAD CAT. hahahha

But I do miss her :)

Me and Ain, Hari Raya 2007

I DREAM

2008-10-19T10:10:00.003+08:00

To end my tears

of echoing emptiness.

To stop my fears

of failure and worthlessness.

To shun from the hate

In her eyes and in their eyes,

from the hollowness of my fate

Escape my daily cries.

The battle of the unloved.

Our screams unheard

I dream...

of being loved

-Hadthiah Hazair-

It's 10am and I just got back from a night out with Wani, who's in KL for a business trip.

It was nice to catch up again over girly chats, giggles, exquisite middle eastern dinner, business talk, belly dancing performance, creepy HBO movie and just plain good company.

Sometimes we forget the good times we've shared with someone until we relive it again.

Wani (L) and I, during our Business reporting days together. :)

Much Love,

xoxoxo

SHTRESHEDDDDDDDD...

2008-10-17T06:50:00.000+08:00

*pulls hair*
*drinks coffee*

It's almost 7am and little miss Hazair hasn't a wink of sleep.
Noserrie Ma'am!!!

Got class in 2 hrs, so little miss H needs more caffeine in her system.

OH!! I am stressed... really, truly, depressedly stressed.

WHY?

I had to re-do a WHOLE portfolio.

BECAUSE I LOST MY PENDRIVE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

A portfolio done over a spread of ten days, squeezed into 8 hours...

To rub salt to injury, the little miss has 3 presentations to complete over the weekends.

JUST SHOOT ME!!!

*Pulls more hair*

Look who's in town!!!

2008-10-16T16:35:00.007+08:00

It's Little Miss Kay, ofcourse!!

After class yesterday, off I went to see Kay.. who was put up in grand style at the Marriot. And in turn, treated me in equal style to Planet Hollywood. Thank you for bagels and dinner, Kay!!

As an ending note, I took a great photo of Kay under the LV boutique logo outside Marriot. I just wanted you all to know that.

But...

I'm too lazy to nick it off her facebook. hahahha.

China's 'M' Crisis...

2008-10-15T09:18:00.003+08:00

In PR class yesterday -

Lecturer:

Can you imagine being at the forefront trying to rectify a crisis as huge as China's "M" crisis?

Class:

.... *quiet* ....

Lecturer:

Do you know what the 'M' crisis is??

Mei Anne:

MONEY!!!

Lecturer:

Do all chinese assume M is for money? It's Melamine crisis lah!

Aaah, the beauty of racial harmony.

Only Asians can laugh at Asian racial jokes w/o feeling insulted.

I love being Asian!!! hahahhaha LOL. Because M afterall, is for money.

Ooohh.. I'm looking forward to next weekend. Not only would the bulk of my assignments be over with, but I'm also scheduled (insyaAllah) to meet Hana in Singapore for a makan-makan holiday! YEAYYYYY....

Aren't we a happy bunch? We are! We are!
Much Love,

World's Best Procrastinator

2008-10-13T20:47:00.000+08:00

One of the more precious rarer moments - apartment's recreational park serenely desserted - yesterday unfolded a truly spectacular lazy, rainy sunday afternoon.

So peaceful was my Sunday, my assignments took a back seat too.

I am afterall, the world's best procrastinator. Truly.

This cute poem is from Harold & Kumar

(for MY number three)

Square Root Of Three

I fear that I will always be

A lonely number like root three
A three is all that’s good and right,

Why must my three keep out of sight

Beneath a vicious square root sign,

I wish instead I were a nine
For nine could thwart this evil trick,

with just some quick arithmetic

I know I’ll never see the sun,

as 1.7321

Such is my reality, a sad irrationality

When hark! Just what is this I see,

Another square root of a three

Has quietly come waltzing by,

Together now we multiply

To form a number we prefer,

Rejoicing as an integer

We break free from our mortal bonds
And with a wave of magic wands
Our square root signs become unglued
And love for me has been renewed

-David Feinberg-

Morning, Morning Glories!

2008-10-12T08:19:00.003+08:00

Aaaa.. I feel crisp and new today. My viral gastroenteritis' better *ewwww*
.. and my mind is clearer from all that sleep i had yesterday (and the purging might've helped a little as well).

Here's a "cute" twist to a not-so-chirpy Business News agenda:

Iceland for sale on E-bay!! And bids are starting from 99p.
Hahah, mind you, should you be the winning bidder, the financial environment is somewhat rocky.

Last friday its has already reached 10 million pounds!!!

Okay, maybe it's poor taste to be laughing, what with Iceland facing national bankcruptcy and what not ---

“No more caviar and brut champagne,” moaned Haukur Magnusson, a contributor to The Reykjavik Grapevine, a popular alternative weekly magazine. “No more imported Kobe beef and foie gras. We are once more at the mercy of our Icelandic fish, which come in three categories: dried, salted and rotted.” (-Watts R, The Sunday Times. Oct 12, 2008-)

Well, let's pray not. It'd be sad to see one of the world's wealthiest nation fall into the grasps of the financial recession.

Ayat Ayat Cinta

2008-10-10T21:54:00.001+08:00

Aku ingin menjadi yang halal buat mu. Yang kau kecup kening nya... Yang kau hapuskan airmata nya.

-Dalam sepucuk surat buat Farhi, Ayat Ayat Cinta-

I've always thought Soal Hati and Pretty Woman were the all time best love stories. I was wrong.

Indah nya cinta dalam Islam...

*sigh*

A more private piece.

2008-10-08T22:06:00.001+08:00

Personal Jihad

I am not

strong enough
not good enough, just,

never enough.

My sobs, always hushed

hidden by dim moonlit nights

my attempts, always

blinded

by Borneoan sunshine -

bright and raw

scathingly hot.

Attempts that are just never enough.

Attempts that will never see

when night

will bring dancing starlights

and day

the smell of Borneoan soil rejoicing in sun.

I am not

strong enough,
to stop -

trying, crying, praying -

these attempts

for as long as this heart beats.

-Hadthiah Hazair-

Festivities are a reason to ... (part 1)

2008-10-07T11:15:00.001+08:00

... Flaunt our inner camera-whores.

And dont u dare deny it!

Photos taken by various ppl and their cameras during hari raya.

Kaka & I @ home first day of Syawal

House numero uno 2nd Syawal - Kaka Meta's

With the hostess with the mostest - Zimah's open house

Sayang & I posing (well, I was anyway)

3rd Syawal started off with Kaka slaving off in the kitchen for our open house

With Mr & Mrs Kurapak :)

Qilah

My boys

The adorable Xit and her not-so-adorable Zaky *hee hee*

My colleagues from BT were the first to come for the open house. But, I was in such a daze, I forgot to take photos.

Thanks for a memorable Syawal 2008.

Back to Uni

2008-10-06T17:07:00.002+08:00

in roughly 18 hrs time, I'd be sitting in Lecture Theatre 1, making sure that my seat is well hidden from the lecturer's view so i could doze off to lala land and back.

HELLLOOOOOOOOOOOOOO canteen food.

SO LOONGGGGG raya open house binges.

Flight leaves in 3 hrs. Would you like to trade places?

Alhamdulillah, the raya this year was great, albeit quiet. I loved every single inch and kgs I gained (roughly 2.5kgs and 100000000 inches).

Mostly, I loved being back and spending stolen moments with him. :)

Will post raya photos once I get back to my apartment in KL.. am gonna savour what's left of my Raya here for now.

*waves*

Hari Raya...

2008-10-03T09:54:00.000+08:00

Hari Yang Muliaa~
~Semoga kita~ Berjumpa lagi~
Di hari~ yang Muliaa inii~~
Selamat, selamat~~ Harii~ Rayaa~

As much as i'd love to take credit for how lovely this turned out to be, it is the tukang jaga ayam's idea and handywork - also affectionately known as my little brother - si A'An.

Lights off

A'An: "Kak, cantik kan kalo gini?"

And some pictures from yesterday...

Me and kaka before heading off to Nini Boy's

Zimah @ nini boy's

InsyaAllah, will post up more Raya pics after my open house tomorrow. Hope I'll see some of you guys :)

Mohon maaf zahir & batin,
T
xoxo

Hello October.

2008-10-01T02:25:00.000+08:00

Many of my dearest and closest celebrate their birthday this month.

OCTOBER BABIES

As October creeps slowly,
all but ten months late.
Babies born on libran's horn
into the arms of October's grace.
Said to grow in justice's path
wise and wittiful
clear and beautiful.
Strumming heart strings of
the lion's child.
Friend, muse
roaring amused.
Amazing 'tis, how true
the beauty they posses.
When the tenth moon shyly smiles,
the lion child purrs aloud

a show to greet her October babies
all that their hearts desire.

-Hadthiah A Hazair-

Happy birthday Reena, Hana, Rohanni and Shaheeb. I love you guys much. Didoakan murah rezki dan diberkati Allah selalu.

xoxox

It's red. It's got spunk!

2008-09-29T05:18:00.000+08:00

The W660i :

(hopefully, it won't share the same fate as my previous phone)

And it's reasonably priced too!!

I always tell people I don't see any good sense in spending more than $300 on a phone. :) Yea, I'm a scrooge like that, so shoot me..

These are Rose's first few photos. (yes, her name's Rose. Rose the red spunky W660i)

Abandoned daughters for sale!!
My parents have left for Perth for Eid Celebrations, leaving sister and I alone for Raya :(

Ka Zy (in Blue): "Hari Raya Promo - Buy 1 free 1!! Buy me for just $3 and sister comes absolutely free!!"

"Here I come to save the day~ Mighty Nas without friends!~"
Me and Ka Zy: "Our Hero!!"

Mighty Nas: "Fret not ladies. I shall save you from the clutches of desertion"
Me: "*gasps* are you strong like Popeye? Can u fly like Superman? Will you wear Captain America's suit? Aiyo kita kawin, bang!"

Huhuhu..

Much love,

xoxox

Silent Prayers

2008-09-27T01:59:00.002+08:00

Repeated whispers of your name
echo inside me. Bellowing.
Ever knowing I am insufficient
to be deserving of your grace.
As my forehead touches ground
palms on earth, face down.Wondering,
would this be the closest
I’ll ever get to thou?
Murky waters lay beneath,troubled,
my soul drenched and sin-dripped.
Would you ever grant me – filthy, blemished –
a place in your nirvana?
O’ draw me strength
to fight my demons. From the turmoil,
o’ help protect me. Shine.
If only just a sliver of hope,
may I be worthy of your blessings.

-Hadthiah A Hazair-

As Ramadhan enters its final stages, the mind can't help wander if the soul would still be encapsuled in body for the next holy month... InsyAllah, will meet again with the next Ramadhan.

Amin.

Footsteps of Yesteryears

2008-09-26T00:05:00.001+08:00

This one's from way back when I was 16.
Sadly, am unsure who or what I was writing it for.
Maybe with time, it'll come back to me again. Meanwhile, I do hope you'd enjoy this piece.

Footsteps of yesteryears,

the laughter and the tears.
Joy filled days of unseen love,
rings my bell of current time -
for you, I thank the stars above;
melodies- can you hear my heart in chimes?

This dream an odyssey you made,
cast a spell upon and set storms calm.
To brighten your day the sun I would steal,
a kiss I grant upon and love you shall feel.
Hear now and hear tomorrow:
Footsteps of mine that takes away sorrow.

-Hadthiah A Hazair-

MMmmmm.

2008-09-25T01:00:00.003+08:00

It is good to be home.

*smiles*

Stolen pictures. I'm Excited!

2008-09-23T21:40:00.001+08:00

No, not about the stolen pictures...

I'm excited cause tomorrow night I'll sleep in the comfort of home. And there's no place like home. Dorothy would know, she told me so :)

These photos fwere nicked off Fikah's facebook. heheheh... From when we had sungkai at Sunway last sunday.

After Sungkai, all five of us: (L-R: Izman, Fikah, Me, Diddy and Dede)

Wait.. where's Dede? hehehe

As you can see, was shamelessly happy to be inbetween the d-d's. huhu

Song stuck in head:

~Hiasi diri indah, riang kan hati gundah~
Bersihkan jiwa~~~ sesuci lebaran~
~Agar sempurna amalan~ Berdoalah insan~
di pagi raya... moga moga terampun Dosaaaaaa~~
-Siti Nurhaliza, Sesuci Lebaran-

Houston, we have take off

2008-09-23T01:36:00.000+08:00

Well, in 24 hours or so at least!!! :)

To be honest, am slightly sad at the thought of heading home sweet home... But, I shan't be depressing in this post. Hahah

'Cause raya's around the corner and I've plenty to look forward and be grateful for:

- Home cooked sungkai with my parents and sister dearest

- Terawih in Brunei

- Sahur and coffee with friends
- Daily fresh laundry

- THE OVEN!
- Stolen moments with my beloved Garfield :)

- Falling asleep to the sound of dad's melodious Quran recital

- Takbir raya

- Hari Raya open houses

- Si Dong and his mute companion (house cats)

BUT, most of all..

I'm grateful to have experienced another Ramadhan come and go in good health. I pray I'd live to see and endure the next too, InsyAllah.

For everything that puts a smile on my face. For every sorrow and sickness that made me a little more humble. For every hardship. For all His blessings. For the people He bestowed in my life, and those He took away - eternalised only in prayers.

Alhamdulillah.

Granted. They can be nice too.

2008-09-22T06:09:00.004+08:00

While hailing a cab in the Sunday-busy-as-payday-raya-shopping-for-half-a-million-people atmosphere along Masjid India yesterday afternoon:

Me and Dede waving down random taxis.
A red and white taxi pulls up.

Me:

*Opens door and peeks inside* Bang, Pegi KLCC boleh?

Taxi driver:

Alah! Dek, jauh sangat lah, ni jam teruk ni. Sorry dek, tak boleh.

Me:
Oh.. *crestfallen face* Terima kasih.

Turns over to face Dede, pouting lips and did the whole shake head and "no go" hand signal.

Taxi driver:

*unwinds window* DEK!!!

(motioning us to come inside)

Me:

Eh, KLCC boleh kah?

Taxi driver:

*Smirks* Mana nak tahan tengok muka kamu macam muka seposen sangat tu!

Dede and Me:

*peeing in our pants with laughter*

Okay, so we didn't pee nor did we purposely pull the whole "damsel in distress" move. But, MUKA SEPOSEN? huhuhu... Lama inda mendangar that expression kali ah.

Granted, despite their reputation as "the worst taxis in the world". some, like the taxi driver just now are really nice and considerate. And thumbs up for using his meter as well. Most taxis just tout the eyeballs out of us (no, I'm not exagerrating. Not really.).

In dire need of brain food.

2008-09-20T00:31:00.000+08:00

Seriously...

Lets hope its the ants.

I better be on my way & guzzle down tonnes of almonds and gingko and fish.

Before I go, this one was written late 2007:

Untitled

And then there was sadness,

Like rapid torpedoes,

In hues of dreaded blues

A slew of swirling unbeknown emotions.

To ignore what is truth perhaps

Fairy tales that’s been long amiss

In mismatched conversations

In secret smiles with hidden meanings

So, I watch from a cautious distance

Of reflections in their faces

Scared of anger, of unbraced truth

I cling to a behemoth of recollected moments

And then there was sadness,

At the uncertainty

Of what you keep in store

As I wait for my augured happily ever after.

-Hadthiah A Hazair-

On a completely different note...

It's worth noting that the KLCI (Kuala Lumpur Composite Index) has dipped to its lowest in almost 2 years, under the 1,000 mark. And as America scrambles to save its financial worries and keep their banks stable from the severe debts, there has been SLIGHT improvement. Japan's market went up a few notches.

Though Merril Lynch was bought over, Lehman Brothers remain unspoken for. However, world's appetite for oil has helped the situation for global players, as plenty take advantage of dropping oil price.

Shall keep eyes and ears posted for more updates. Though, swift actions seem to help Wall Street from the crutches of severe recession (thus, the rest of the global market).

Ok, my brain needs to rest now before i become (god forbid) even more forgetful

Bye,

Little miss forgetful
xoxox

My day in pictures

2008-09-18T13:44:00.000+08:00

Syazee, Liza and I took touristy a trip to Masjid Jamek and its surrounding yesterday...

My partners in crime for the day, on the train to KL sentral

Syazee and I beckoning Liza to come have a look, KL Sentral

Fixated on kueh raya

Next stop: Masjid Jamek for Afternoon solat

Resting before we headed for...

RAMADHAN BAZAAR!!!!

Liza and Syazee: "Hadthiah, what are these?"

Fresh fruits and produce for sale

Ooooo.. I found kueh keria :)

Almost time for sungkai!!! Liza, deciding what to eat.

Tired and ready for bed as we waited for the 9.05 train to come

Finally, on our way back to cyberjaya.

Been a while since i've been out with the both of them together. Alhamdulillah... for good times, great friends and cherished memories :)

When the Lehman Brothers Shake...

2008-09-17T04:03:00.003+08:00

Even dropping oil prices take a back seat. It ain't business as usual.

At long last, oil prices have dropped to under USD100/barrel, but then, the Lehman Brothers decide to declare bankruptcy. The global market nosedives, Asian stock markets are effected.

It's true... Good news never last long.

Alas the fact remains, America's capitalism will always efect the rest of the world. What happens in Wall Street, don't just stay there.

Proof that the sordid notion of democracy spurs little else but overdriven consumerism (with dire consequences such is the case with the credit crunch).

But, best be keeping opinions to self.

And shake the Lehmans did indeed.

Oh, well...

Will promise to post less boring stuff after my trip to Masjid Jamek later. Planning to get good shots of Ramadhan atmosphere here in KL. And lots and lots of goodies for sungkai :)

"Under capitalism, man exploits man..." - J.K. Galbraith

A really tall tale :)

2008-09-15T20:44:00.000+08:00

This I wrote, not of boredom. But, endearment....

DESARIA

At the end of a place called Cyberjaya

stands a condo, yellow and white-

altogether three blocks in all,

Desaria, they say it’s called.

The middle block,

So aptly named B

Buzzes away, busy as bees.

Rowdy and lively and sleep does not fall

Rest you shan’t cause it’s a party for all.

I live on its tail -

Block C, by the pool.

With country fellows,

in levels one through till five.

For us this is home, away from Brunei.

A snake and its master dwell at five.

Raphael, the snake she calls.

A boa python: brown and all.

She feeds him little white mice

in a week, she tells me, just thrice.

Then there is me at level four:

Quiet and sometimes a bore.

I write and I read, but mostly I clean-

Mary Poppins I’m certainly not -

just slightly obsessed with mopping my floor.

Trained in the army he also plays rugby -

The genteel giant of level three.

His secret though he hides so well:

Who would’ve known, shopping’s his game?

He eats like a beast but he’s ever so swell.

Two sisters stay on level two,

Smiley and bubbly whither or who.

The elder makes one mean chilled slice.

Mars bars, she said with air popped rice:

makes the slice gooey and nice.

Though I know not much at all

let’s not forgo the guy on one.

This much I know is oh-so- true

a cousin, he is, of the sisters at two.

And very well, he’s a very tall lad.

Before I end, I shan’t forget

To tell you a tale of Desa’s head:

Little Block A, on the very tip.

The place to go when things go bad

to voice your woes and pay the rent.

Now the story I will end,

Of a place at Cyberjaya’s end.

Yellow and white and tall,

altogether three blocks in all.

Desaria, they say it’s called.

-Hadthiah A Hazair-

I shud've gotten one:

2008-09-15T11:02:00.000+08:00

Overheard yesterday while queueing behind some Mak Datin at the Casheir in Godiva, KLCC:

Casheir:

Ma'am, will this be all?

Mak Datin:

Yes, I tak tahu Godiva sini jual biscuits yang ni. My stock dah habis, I slalu beli when I'm in the states.

Casheir:

Oh, ni agak laku jugak, people tell me it's addictive.

Mak Datin:

Heavenly betul!! Ni pun *points at her basket full of chocolate bisuits* I boleh finish sekejap jer.

Needless to say, I backed out of the queue to get myself one pack of the "heavenly" biscuits. Only to almost die of an embolism....

MYR54 for a small little pack!!!! Erkk.. Maybe next time?

Ahhh.. the things rich people say and buy.

Otherized, stereotyped and victims of prejudice.

2008-09-14T01:23:00.005+08:00

A shared sentiment by almost all Muslims.

"We did not vilify white men when they bombed Oklahoma, give out his family's address or church or blamed the bible... Correspondents edit images. Archives facilitate lazy journalism. And when we talk about holy books, hooded men and death, why never mention about the KKK?... I don't give a fuck about Bin Laden his vision of the world don't represent me or those I love."

- Suheir Hammad-

Fi Amanillah Muslimeen.

Where I wanna be..

2008-09-13T13:06:00.005+08:00

(No, not KFC...)

Come whisk me to Marrakesh,

to stroll along the isle of souks -

sights and sound all new and fresh.

The pictures I see in travel books,

they haunt me in my sleep.

Will you take me to Marrakesh?

To marvel & awe its old world charm:

Vibrant colours in mix and mash,

hues of reds and everything warm.

To sip a glass of sweet mint tea.

They tell me it’s nice in Marrakesh.

Carpets and cloths and shoe makers too.

Scent of meals brewed in tall tajine pots.

A kingdom where legends were born

and dreams came true.

-Hadthiah Hazair-

So, will you take me to Marrakesh? *smiles*

"The man who views the world at 50 the same as he did at 20 has wasted 30 years of his life" -Muhammad Ali, Boxing Champion-

The things they say :)

2008-09-13T02:07:00.002+08:00

Over sungkai at nandos:

Me: Di, lawa eh the girl yang duduk behind you ah.

Didi: iyakan? Tadi ku liat inda jua.

Me: Lawa!! Macam ada arab arab sikit.

Didi: Nada eh, macam mukanya atu macam babu-babu.

Me: Huh?

Didi: Awu ah, macam u bah, macam babu-babu.

WTH man? hahhahah LOL

Lost...

2008-09-12T15:23:00.001+08:00

You know that feeling when u've got so much to do and so little time left that you don't know where to start or how to do it?

Need I say more? *SIGH*

Things due:

- Event Management Planning

- Feature Story

- 2nd week reading log

- 3rd week reading log

- Harmony Gongs' profile

Ugh ugh ugh ugh. Ces't La Vie, I guess.

Thought I'd post up some old photos I found in an old pen drive. It's nice to look back over the years...

2005, with Harpan and the Mach gang ...

I THINK this was late 2006, car boot sale with Rohanni & Shima. Shaheeb joined the fun.

OMG!!! Hari Raya 2004!!!!! ahahhaha (or was it 2003? With Neng and Alin)

Wow, how time flies :)
Next thing you know it'll be 2009 and we're a year older (none the wiser, yet).

I should've done work...

2008-09-11T01:02:00.002+08:00

But:

Razzle me, Dazzle me.

Oh, if you only knew

what it is you do to me:

Things that doth come so few.

Times I’ve been bewitched,

by fervent spells you cast

has left my heart a twitch.

'Tis a thing I just can’t trust.

Razzle me, Dazzle me.

Oh, set my life ablaze;

win me, make me see

dreams upon which thou gaze.

-Hadthiah A Hazair-

Wouldn't it be nice to live a life w/o buts.. ?

K, this time am really going to attempt work (or sleep, whichever comes first)

Lest we forget...

2008-09-10T13:20:00.002+08:00

He has made Ramadhan a month for us not just to fast, but reflect.

And may He always put it in our hearts to help those who need our help the most.

Robbana Atina Fid Duniya Khasanah Wa fil Akhiroti Hasanah Wa Qi Na Aza bannar. Amin.

Rasullah S.A.W bersabda yang bermaksud:
"Sesiapa yang mempunyai kenderaan yang melebihi dari keperluannya sendiri hendaklah bersedekah kepada orang yang tidak mempunyai kenderaan dan sesiapa yang mempunyai lebihan bekalan makanan hendaklah ia bersedekah kepada orang yang tidak mempunyai apa-apa bekalan makanan..."

(Hadith Riwayat Muslim)

Let us help, wherever we can, whenever we can.

Desperate Housewives Marathon

2008-09-10T00:04:00.003+08:00

Funny quote:

"What do you want me to say? My husband likes to wear metal clamps around his nipples... Hooray!?"

– Bree Van De Kamp (on finding out her husband’s dominatrix fetish).

Aaaaahh, don't you just love the ladies on Wisteria Lane and the drama that goes on about?
Hahaha, I absolutely adore Bree and her anal ways - brings a smirk on my face. *grinz*

Ok, am gonna get back to my I'm-actually-procrastinating-work-desperately-deperate housewives-session.

*sigh*

Slap me silly, someone...

Simple Pleasures

2008-09-09T12:04:00.004+08:00

Finally got hold of a special gift from a really special cat :)

Thank you, hun.

And I know you like this one *hugs*...

SIMPLE PLEASURES

A smile on my face,
The dance of your voice in my ears,
Heart as light as feathers,
Life's simple pleasures,
Chase away all my fears,
Laugh away all my complexities,
Just for the moment - simplicity!
Appreciative of life's simple pleasures,
Eternally cherished,
perpetually treasured.

-Hadthiah A Hazair-

The Thing abt Malay Dramas

2008-09-08T03:12:00.005+08:00

... Is they make my problems seem like little ants. And I appreciate this.

Especially the ones they play this time around, for Ramadhan. I mean, talk about humbling. hehe

Oh, and they remind me of someone too. *smiles*

For Nini :)

Once an old lady taught
to a child of only nine:
"Always say your prayers."

Once this old lady cooked,
for the child who was unwell

Some porridge for her soul.

And then she said some words
for the child to keep at heart:
"Dear, praise Him while you can."

Now the child is older,
wiser, stronger, and grateful

for lessons she was taught.

To have been raised by you

Dear lady, I am lucky -
God made you my granny.

-Hadthiah A Hazair-

Note: this is actually a series of haikus put together to form a poem. Instead of the 5/7/5 pattern the Japanese adhere to, I used 6/7/6 .

Time for afternoon class now...

*waves*

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2008-09-07T23:57:00.003+08:00

Song stuck in head:

~Berpuasa~ Rukun Islam ke tiga~

Wajib kita~ Untuk menunaikannya~

~Tidak kira usia tua dan muda~
Miskin dan kaya~ Semua serupa~

-Senario, Puasa & Raya-

I'm haaaPppPPYyYYyy :)

Alhamdulillah, I had the best sungkai so far this Ramadhan. Effa, Heba and I cooked at her place and the four of us (with Didi) ate till we could talk no longer.

Suddenly, the looming boring class I have to endure in a few hours dont seem too bad.

HasbiAllah Wal ni' Mal Wakeel, Wal Ni' Mal Maula, Wal Ni'man Nasseer

"Allah and His blessings is sufficient for me (to rely on) as he is the best protector and guardian"

A Limerick For Monday

2008-09-07T14:48:00.003+08:00

Goodness, why does the weekend seem so short? *sigh*
It'll be Monday in a few hours.

Limericks can be a hoot to write but are crude, and usually poke fun at people and situations.
So, I write them only when I feel revengeful (and rarely post them for anyone to read).
But here's one for my monday morning class, just for fun :)

All she wears is black!
Monstrosity. It's humour she lacks.
Cool she’s not - poor dreary soul.
When she teaches, I wanna bawl.
Monday class? URGH! Someone, hand me the axe!

-Hadthiah A Hazair-

The thing tho with limericks is I feel guilty afterwards. Hahahha.
O well.. Better make do and savour what's left of my Sunday before I face tomorrow's dull orchestra.

Hmm.. what shall sungkai be?

*tuts*

When Hana Was Here

2008-09-07T00:41:00.002+08:00

Thought I'd post up photos from when Hana came to KL for a weekend visit. Some 2 weeks ago.

Would be nice if she came again for a weekend sungkai supremo.
But, I guess, I cant have everything I wish for.

@ Home before setting off for a Sunway adventure

The suspension bridge left us woozy. haha (well, me and Hana at least)

Hana, Me & Didi after Euphoria :)

It's times like these that reminds me why i wrote this poem way back in the mid nineties. It still puts a smile on my face when i read it.
Hopefully you'll enjoy it too. It's for families and friends and the people who've left an impression in my life:

THANK YOU

Pink and blue in shades of pastle;
I thank you now for patience that never rattles.
For heavenly comforts and endless laughters.
Times treasured in the past and whatever shall happen after.
Rainbow filled days made possible,
Blessings I say forever shall remain affable.
I thank you now for the friend you are:
For bringing change that never will mar,
Winning my trust like a million to woo.
For the person you are -
I thank you.

-Hadthiah A Hazair-

This One's for Ain

2008-09-06T17:05:00.001+08:00

Wow, I forgot I created this account eons ago. Stumbled upon it once again, and have decided to make full use of this one.

Will be using the site for my poems, haikus and limericks.

This one's for my baby Ain:

WHAT USED TO BE

Gaping, gasping...

Eyes searching for permission,

to let go of life, of what used to be.

Helplessly, unwillingly

I watched you lose the battle.

Oh, what a perfect companion you used to be.

Tears, grief...

As you weakened and left.

My rock, the only constant that used to be.

Memories , trinkets...

All that’s left of you, of us.

And it’ll forever remain what we used to be.

Painfully, struggling...

And though I wallow in this odium of loss;

to Him, I know you must return.

-Hadthiah A Hazair-

“Until one has loved an animal, a part of one’s soul remains unawakened” - anonymous

Not your average blogger

2007-02-28T16:44:00.000+09:00

For reasons which includes the likes of boredom and certain websites being blocked, I have resorted to this.

I'm used to having control over who reads my blogs, but, this too shall suffice - for now, Atleast.

I was busy going about my routine daily life, whan Liz called, bearing such fruitful news:

"Bandar Seri Begawan - A new employment act is in the pipeline, which will provide wider coverage to all workers in the private sector instead of only manual workers who were covered by the earlier Labour Act."

Alas, all that hard work, fighting for a just case, finally paid off.

& to a particular Local Private owned Company... I hope you burn and fall and crush to the ground, and with this new act, pee in your pants as well!!!!!!!!!

Oh, and although i know the chances of you stumbling across this is pretty slim - you can writhe in pain in your shallow graves and take my money with your dirty souls as well!

*deep breath*
*exhale*

It's time to go home now :)

Not such a genius afterall

Don't you know it?

twitching & wishing

Simple things that make my day.

make belive

When it rains, it pours.

Life can be...

Dear Blog,

Come and rest your bones with me.

It sure feels good to write.

For those stricken...

Pearls...are my my best friend.

Sometimes

Silence is a language....

20-somethings & their stories

When life gives you lemons...

It's a race...

It's Your Birthday

hush hush secret

Counting my blessings

Silver linings

What if i never know?

Back in Business

A little prayer for a beloved cousin.

Can't help loving...

Gong Xi Gong Xi!!!

My new toy :)

Bear with me.. (So, the "health routine" begins AGAIN)

She's Back!!!!

Forever Thankful.

Things I Do...

Tir's been a bad bad girl.

Just Cabbages. *hurl*

Call me Miss Jiggles.

Open up your plans and damn you're free~

Lady Leisure Extraordinaire

Missing, missing and missing...

So Long No Exercise.

So Happy I'm Hopping

Bubbles of randomness

My no teeth smile, he says...

It's a beautiful dawn

I miss jogging.

Breathe. Breathe. Breathe.

Off we went...

I missed Singapore

Last Night, I Laughed till 3am

The broke & the Shopping

Note to self.

Oh, Doctor!

I Make Party Hats Rock

Headaches, Weird Dreams and High Stress Levels

I DREAM

SHTRESHEDDDDDDDD...

Look who's in town!!!

China's 'M' Crisis...

World's Best Procrastinator

Morning, Morning Glories!

Ayat Ayat Cinta

A more private piece.

Festivities are a reason to ... (part 1)

Back to Uni

Hari Raya...

Hello October.

It's red. It's got spunk!

Silent Prayers

Footsteps of Yesteryears

MMmmmm.

Stolen pictures. I'm Excited!

Houston, we have take off

Granted. They can be nice too.

In dire need of brain food.

My day in pictures

When the Lehman Brothers Shake...

A really tall tale :)

I shud've gotten one:

Otherized, stereotyped and victims of prejudice.

Where I wanna be..

The things they say :)

Lost...

Just Cabbages. hurl

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